i love losing myself in my digital collages. time just passes without me noticing. it is peaceful and liberating.
THE BATTLE OF EGO
The Battle of Ego is my favourite digital collage so far as it is colourful and tells a story. In this piece I am preparing myself to confront my Ego. Despite my huge will power to battle my inner demons, the path to success is filled with distracting obstacles, blinding thoughts and destructive habits that I must unlearn in order to just get started. Moreover, the real root of misery likes to hide behind the whispered lies of my pride. I still have far to go but time is on my side.
>attempted< depicts my 2019 Despair, poisonous circumstances and foggy thoughts. i tried breaking free from it. but i consciously decided that i deserved to be punished, hence the psychological self-flagellation that has been my daily dose of self-inflicting pain. it’s exhausting. i am strong but not that strong. and i can be very cruel to myself. This said, Hope will always be.
/dɪsˈɪntɪɡreɪt/ is the portrayal of my determination faced with the incessant pressures of society. despite being torn apart by the public’s opinion on what i should do, my inner child remains firm and assertive, ready to fight for my ambitions. where others see failure, i see opportunity. where others see a dead end, i see possibility. some call me a fighter, most call me a delusional. regardless, no one can strip me away from my greatest strength: dreaming big.
space_cake is a celebration of my achievements this far and a pseudo middle finger to anyone who tried to stop me from being. i made space_cake to remind people that their negativity won’t stop me reaching for the moon but that they can follow my journey and enjoy the view instead. outraging the nay-sayers with my goals and proving them wrong has become my new favourite side-effect when reaching new milestones.
swiit>nada denounces the low quality dating game (dice) that currently has spread across society, majorly due to people’s mental health state and utter despair when confronted to Life. the orangutan symbolises me getting wiser when confronted with the lies and tactics men use to “seduce” me (nails on tongue). if i once used to be blinded by men’s exterior looks and cheap flattery, i now observe their actual actions and seek real value. however i am still fragile (eggs) as its hard to break the habit of always putting men on a pedestal and viewing myself as inferior to them. the “sexy” aims to show that the most banal and uninspired compliment was enough to swoop me off my feet. the flower (physical looks) is so beautiful and so important to society (hence the spotlight on it) that it blinded me from seeing the prick behind the cute face (cactus) and the damaged soul behind the blah (sad mouse). now i see more clearly. but do i?